Santa I hope you have room for one more

I have thought about this over and over...what would make me happy; what is my Christmas wish? There are a few things that would make me happy. I love the holiday season and all that it stands for, but for me they have become a source of pain. I always dreamed of decorating my house, cooking dinner and having family and friends come over. Exchanging gifts, stories, love, food..listening to Christmas songs...slightly drunken remixes of Christmas classics. Spending quality time with my daughter and her dad....being a family. Hot cocoa ** withmarshmellows ** in front of a cozy fire, reminding each other of why we're thankful and of family, just basking in the moments of another year past and the expectations of the year to come. Playing Santa again for Little Miss and seeing her face together as she tears through wrapping paper....None of that exists, or evenexisted . My Christmas wish would be for the Romeo and Juliet family saga to end. Two families into one, the past put behind, and friendships grown. That would make everyday of the rest of my life so worthwhile. At times I wish that me and my ex were a family again. Through all the hurt and pain that he caused me, and I him...there is no one that can ever give me the feeling of wholeness, completeness. I wish for loving family, broken hearts to be mended and joined as one. I also wish for a good paying, stable job with benefits, so I can take care of my daughter and myself and pay for my tuition next month..Santa I hope you have room for one more!!